I'm trying to understand life and people that live life. And why people treat people the way they do now of days. When I was growing up I was told to show people respect and I should get respect back. But now of days people try to see what they can get from you without giving you the respect you gave them. They like to see how much they can get from you for free. They don't seem to have any feelings.
I went to the Army after I graduated high school I did three years. I had a aneurism after I got out, and I had some hard times for a while but I picked myself up without the government to help me. I got a job my own place. I didn't get much money but it was my money.
I got into a relationship with a guy who had a job and his own place. Some how he lost his job, his place and moved in with me. I didn't see what was happening til it was to late. He ended up stealing my things, money and my heart. I was young then - I was 23 years old at the time. I didn't have any kids. So I moved forward with life and I did drink a lot . I started drinking in high school, but I did a lot of drinking in the Army which is not a good thing but I was not thinking that clear then. I was still moving forward and taking care of the things I was shown and taught as I was growing up.
I was trying to find something or someone in life that I can live life with. But it ain't that easy as I thought it would be. I still had a lot of growing to do, but I didn't know where to go to learn the right things so I made a lot of mistakes. I had to learn things the hard way. So I did a lot of falling and getting back up. But each time I fell I drank more and didn't understand what was happening to me-- I was feeling very alone in my problem and didn't know were to go except forward. By working and take care of myself and finding my dream man I know he is out there somewhere.
