Today is Monday and it was a o.k. weekend. I still working on my life and trying to understand how to deal with myself . And I got allot of growing to do and not be so stubborn. All I'm doing is hurting myself or better way of saying it is killing myself. And I'm going to the V.A. on Tuesday,Thursday, and Friday. And I go to classes up there. And they are about self esteem, conflicts me little while more to get it. But some times I just don't understand why people can be so evil or what the #$%^ they are thinking when they go out of there way to hurt a person. And they just talk like they are right and if you do it a different way its wrong. I've got allot of growing up to do and if I make a mistake I will have to take it like a grown up. And do OK in dilling with my mistakes but the people will not let me live it down on my mistakes. I believe the Lord would let me know one way or a nether about my mistakes. There is so many perigees people and some is about color and allot is because you don't what ever one wants you to do. The Lord gave each of us a brain to think from and I'm trying to grow up and I may not think like ever one Else's but I don't lie and I don't try to hurt anyone. Or go out of my way to hurt someone. Because I may have something they wont and they think I didn't deserve it . They don't what I had gown throw to get what I got and they get very evil about. And I don't understand now of days people get very ugly and it does bother them. But then again they just need to talk to each other and instead of talking about each other it may be allot better world if they can be on est to each other.