Sometimes I feel like a spider. Because it is small and I feel small and ugly and they just see me and step on me. I don't like to feel small and be looked down at . I've got a lot of growing to do . But I'm trying to grow in a positive direction it does not happen over night . but at leased I'm trying And the lord is there. Thank you lord.

You Now

Me now. I'm still trying to find myself . I feel like I'm doing good in school. I'm trying to figure out what is my next step. I am scared that I will make a wrong move. I have to move forward and if it is wrong I know not to do that again. I feel like I'm alone in this growing steps that I'm doing for myself. I know the Lord is there. But don't know if it is right on what I'm doing some time. Because I feel like I'm all alone doing things. I feel like the family I have is disrespecting me. And I don't know how to stop them from keep on doing what they are doing. I feel they don't why they won't stop the games. Lord help me understand WHY.

Beauty

The Lords beauty is in all shapes and sizes and colors. The freedom the animals have in the forest and waters. Sometimes I would love to be one of them animals. The people can be so evil I would just run away from these people that can do so much damage. And I feel Like they have no heart and faith. I love the beauty I see in them.

Eagles can Fly

The Eagles I see fly with such grace in the sky. They show so much beauty and life. And knowing the lord had created these creatures from his mind. It is so bueatiful and mighty looking at the life of the lords creatures. They are one of many birds that fly in gods sky.

I'm doing good in school and I learning a lot of things. I like school and my teachers. Some of the students are nice to talk to because I stay at home a lot and I do need someone to talk to so I like it. I like joking around with them and they listen to me too. I'm trying to grow in the positive way. Well that is what I think and I do believe in my self. As long as I feel good about what I'm doing and god it's o.k with me I can't make everyone happy and I'm not going out of my way to try. Because it would be a waste of my time.

In the bright sun shows freedom with the bird flying in the air of sun. The lord shows so much beauty .

To see a soilder in the bueaty of the bright sun. Its gods bueaty that is showing so well and bright. God bless him and every other soilder thats out there with him. THere in my heart. bless them all.

Lord I've been trying to understand why don't they talk to me. My family talks about me. I'm so tires of hearing them. They won't stop messing with my head. they won't stop lord. WHY?

Today I went to Mrs. Tate's class. And it was good. I like her class. I learn a lot. I'm trying to grow. And make something out of myself. I feed like my family can't even talk to me. But they have know problems talking to other people and call me a lire. That I do not understand. Because they do not talk to me at all. I hear them talking to other people all the time. I'm want them to stop the mind games. Why not talk to me and not lie. I'm so tired of lairs. I don't why people just let them keep on letting them play these mind games. I wish someone just come up to me and talk because I'm a grown woman and I need them to talk to me. How can a person grow when they just sit there and talk about a person an just go on. I am learning something. People can be just evil. And have no feelings are other people. People need to take the time out and listen to someone and talk to that person to there face. And not ask questions to another person an not to that person. I'm still asking why . I need to know that is a way if learning.

I'm talked to my Doctor today. I forgot I had a appointment with him. But I called him and may ed a norther appointment. I get some things out that I needed to get out of my head. He is prode of me that I'm going to school. At least he is prode of me. I"m going to see my docter Monday and then go to school after my appointment so I'll have a bissy day. I'll getthings together with god on my side. And school, student. andteachers on my side. Because I feel good at school and I can do good at school. And no one can say I don't earn my grades. And that makes me feel really good when I hear that. Some people are good. I'll will make it.